Welcome MY Sweet Angel Layden Paul

Dear Layden Paul, 

Here I am looking at your beautiful face – the face of an angel. It is a face so unique, yet so familiar. I knew this face instantly when a first looked at you – as if I have always known you. I loved you right away and immediately wanted to do everything I could to protect you, to keep you safe, warm and happy.

Layden, you are 8 days old now. You were born  7 1/2 weeks early. If you hadn’t come early, you’d still be inside of me but you couldn't wait.  I wonder if you always do thing you want the way you want. I’m so glad I was given even more time to spend with you, to look into your eyes, gaze at your beautiful face, to get to know you. I wish I could bring you home with me today. I hate leaving you here. 

I am in love. It is a love like none other. Other parents have always told me that the love a mother has for her child is the deepest love she will ever have. I understand what they mean by that. It is indescribable. It is all-consuming. It is unconditional. I am in awe of you. You have already shown your own personality, and asserted your own will. I delight in learning about you, and I am so excited about getting to know you better. I have the honor of raising you – of giving you your childhood, of watching you grow up, of witnessing who you will be, as I guide you to the best of my ability along the way. What a miracle, a gift, and a blessing you are.

I am different now. Having you has changed me. From the moment you were born, I have become someone else, someone new, someone better. My life has a whole new meaning. I am your mother. Now, you and your older brother come first. Not a second goes by when I’m not thinking about you. I worry about you and must constantly check to see that you are okay. Even when I sleep, I’m not fully asleep because I am thinking about you.

I can spend endless time just looking at you. I hold you in my arms and stare at your perfect little features. I can do this all day long. It gives me a thrill to see you open your eyes (which are now a blue gray color) and look at me. You even seem to enjoy my singing to you.

Layden, I am so thankful for you. I look forward to the journey that you, your brother, daddy, and I will travel together. We have so much to look forward to, so many milestones to accomplish, and memories to make. Along the way, I will cherish each moment as I know time will pass much too quickly.

Love,

Mommy